Ideal Activity

I would really like to smash some glass right about now. Bottles, lighting tubes, windows, screens, the like. Just to see it completely destroyed with little effort, little shards flying helplessly in the air. Just cool to see where the glass will break, and into how many little pieces. Alas, I can’t really do this without attracting a crowd. Also, I would just laying glass outside, which is nothing that should be done. And I can’t really do it indoors either, because I don’t want to clean up the broken glass. When I go home on Wednesday, I would love to just break some bottles in my backyard. But then I have to clean it up becuase I don’t like leaving shards outside for my family to step on. Why can’t there just be a place reserved for people to smash glass without a care for cleanup? Just need to relieve the stress by smashing glass, can’t even do it…

From Out of Nowhere

This blog was pretty much dead for the second half of October. It is still kinda dead to be honest as I lack the energy or time to maintain it regularly. The fact that I failed almost all of my exams compunded with the regular business that is sophomore year prolonged it all till this post. I thought I might as well beat the dead horse and write something that encompasses things going on and/or whatever that has changed for me.

1. November the 1st. October was a wicked blur of shit, piss, and alcohol. Grades sank to new depths, concepts became more hazy, life somehow got worse. I was at the point of not wanting to live, seriously. But being the anti-suicide guy I am, I thought that it is just better to cope and be bitter for a while. And I was becoming an alcoholic for a while. Not a real alcoholic but I seemed as if I was.
2. The stress has been alleviated momentarily but it will never really end for this semester. I have to really study organic chemistry all the time now because I am not getting a C as of now. This does not sound good at all, as this may threaten a concentration shift in my major if I do not pass. Goddamit.
3. I am a little happier now and Family Weekend here seemed to lighten things up for me for some odd reason. Just going outside and seeing all these happy parents and children, coupled with the 10 star weather we are having here in Baltimore, makes one feel good inside. 
4. Halloween was a fairly fun day. Tried this Espresso Vodka, that this girl gave me. She was enamored with it, and I emphasize the word enamored. Also had some Jim Beam and some wine. The wine made me realize that I hate wine, again. And socializing with people is good as a catharsis from the stress. Made me feel better again (See 3).
5. Been doing a little bit of everything at the Rec Center. They are setting up a Diwali festival here, which means that all the courts are closed and I’m not really doing much for the next 2.5 hours. I also got some free hamburgers and hot dogs from the Fraternity sponsored grill for the football game. It’s good to have free lunch. Who said there is no such thing as free lunch?
6. The presidential election is coming up soon. Hopefully Barack can pull it off and hopefully deliver “the change America needs”. I think I missed the New Jersey voting deadline so I fucked out of luck. Oh well, I live in the most Democratic-sponsoring county in New Jersey so they won’t hear me. Still if there’s a chance I could squeeze my vote in that would be awesome.
7. Though the Rays lost the World Series by “defeating themselves”, this is only the beginning. Harassment of the American League will go on for years. I guarantee it.