Search For the Cure

If anyone knows or has seen me before, one would know that I have acne problems. And as of late, my acne problems have gone out of control. I have always used face-washing agents to help control this, but there is a problem. Clearasil made an Icewash Gel Cleanser that I have and continue to use. I find it extremely effective and trust no other product. The problem is that my supply has dwindled so much that I have had to conserve the product. The problem is that none of the stores or online sites sells this product. I think I am in trouble. The Icewash may have some kind of health effect that I am unaware of, causing it to be discontinued. But I don’t care. I need the product!

PS – I am aware my grammar is pretty bad when I wrote this. I have some kind of brainfog right now.

Some Kind of Injury

I have been in a world of pain since this morning, as a result of moving things on Sunday. I was carrying a heavy box for a long distance and I think this really took a toll on my lower back. It seems like the pain is only stemming from one area in the lower back. I also had to do a bunch of crap involving physical exertion today in the backyard and this probably did not help. But as of now, it is hard to move. If I drop something, I am screwed because I do not feel like experiencing pain picking it up off the ground. A permanent injury would be unexpected and unwelcome. I would not be satisfied at all if my body falls into more disrepair than it already is.

Gnashing

I have been very fatigued the last few days with traveling and moving things almost nonstop. Really makes me go to sleep at a early time of the night. I don’t even feel like going on AIM that much because I am so tired.

Also, RSS feed sucks. It is very unreliable and slow, it doesn’t capture the mood of the moment, mostly due to the delay in time. I’m just going to export my blog manually from now on. Some times things work better the easy way.

The Year in Review

As I am almost completely done packing, I will discuss a general overview of my first year in college. It seems a reoccurring theme I bring up all the time is the power of change. This first year in college was definitely a time of change for my character, mostly for the better.

1. I met a lot of people this year and I learned that many people are fake. They are living under a facade of deception, like a magician behind plumes of smokescreen. These people cannot be trusted and can be deleterious in the end. The few, real people are the ones you should hold onto for the future.
2. I learned a little more about Hopkins. Though it is not actually as competitive as I thought (kids ripping out pages in books in library), it does make you an acerbic, angry person in the end. It definitely made me a worse person for the most.
3. I realized that the school workload is ultimately demoralizing to people like me. Sometimes I just wanted to give up because the work just never stopped coming. And I could spend X number of hours studying and fail while other can spend X/4 hours studying and get an A. Another pitiful reoccuring theme.
4. I didn’t drink that much this year, but I did learn that alcohol is a good resort when everything in life sucks. Being drunk is a temporary (or prolonged) state of bliss that cannot be matched by most feelings.
5. I now know that working out and being in good physical condition requires dedication. First semester was a disaster in terms of working out and it was nonexistent for long periods of time. Second semester was rather consistent, but after not working out for about two or three weeks during finals, I gained some weight in fat. While I did gain a good amount of muscle mass this year, I still have to lose fat. Hopefully I could lose most of it this summer with my job (which requires walking about 5-8 miles a day).
6. While I am taking courses for my Public Health major, I know that there are a lot of freebie classes out there at Hopkins. I found one last semester with Subatomic World (A- did not count towards GPA), and will try to take as many as possible. I need to boost my grades any way possible.
7. Though I wouldn’t be living in Charles Commons next year, I’ll try not to be as pissed off living in McCoy. Eventually I might get use to it. Maybe.
8. I am now a sophomore. I remember I though sophomore year was the best in high school. But with the classes I am taking in the fall, it seems like I might be come a D-Level-lurking mole.
9. Baltimore is regarded as shitty by many, mainly because of the high crime rate. However, there is good stuff here, that’s what the seniors say. It is a good cultural oasis for entertainment. I still don’t know enough about the city to defend it just yet, but I have not given up on Baltimore.
10. Wasted opportunities and lugubriousness, the themes for the first year.

I am curious to see if I have Internet at home, I hope I do…

So long, for now.

Popular on DC++

People seem to be getting desperate on DC++ for the Hopkins network and a lot of people are downloading off me. Seeing as how the big guns (TB+) have gone home, I have noticed people downloading a lot of stuff off me. Usually there are 0-2 songs downloaded off me, but today there may have been over 50.

But actually I feel this is good. I have a lot of music that most people on the network don’t have and sharing is the whole point of DC++. I want to spread what I have, so everyone can try it. I feel good about this so I will leave my computer on so people could download off me all night long. I am a philanthropist.

It’s About Time

39 games into the MLB season, which is about 1/4 of the way through, the Tampa Bay Rays are currently 1st place in the AL East, one of the more competitive divisions out there. It took the team 10 years to finally achieve a potentially short-lived feat. But anyways, it is a good time to be a Rays fan now.

The reasons for the success of the Rays can be attributed to outstanding starting pitching, much improved relief pitching, aggressive baserunning, and clutch hits. Basically, the whole team is contributing right now and the team is doing really well.

Though I do not expect the team to retain the 1st place mantle, I do see the team as a playoff contender now. And making it into the playoffs would much bigger news.

This good feeling is probably much more fervent for those who were Rays fans their entire lives. I only became a Rays fan about 2 seasons ago. The good feeling felt by those lifelong Rays fans is probably equivalent to a parent seeing their retarded child suddenly becoming of above-average intelligence. It is that special.

Freedom Run

Last night I decided to sleep early (around 11:30 PM) so I could wake up early for my Public Health final. However, I could not sleep until 2 AM and I felt really distressed. I went to the bathroom a couple times and knocked back some Codeine to help myself sleep… I did sleep until 8:57 AM. I remember our professor said that he would be locking the doors at 9 AM, I had no time to waste.

So I ran and ran. I got to the classroom at 8:59 AM and saw the test proctor handing out exams. I was tired, dizzy, and disoriented, but I made it. After drinking some water and going to the bathroom, I felt ready to take on the exam. And here I stand. And the doors were never locked at 9 AM. I could have skipped all the drama.

Grab the Lizard by the Bottle

Just a few minutes back, I spent pretty much part of my last dining dollar (.$72 left). My original endowment of $400 DD’s has been whittled all the way down, like the remains of the Byzantine Empire. But what did I spent them on? Well, I bought two SoBe drinks: an Elixir drink and a SoBe Energy Adrenaline Rush. Though it is likely that one of the drinks (Energy) will warm up to room temperature, I don’t really care. I think SoBe is a relatively good product but some people think otherwise.

#7 is a loser. sobe is for gays. powerthirst is for real men.

The person who said the quote above was poster #11 in JHU Confessions, in a thread about energy. If that motherfucker thinks Powerthirst is so good why doesn’t he buy me one “fo’ free?” And also I actually have seen SoBe advertised and I know about it. If Powerthirst actually made themselves known (they don’t even have a website), then I would probably buy it.

The Path is Clearer

College is all work right now, an experience that I will come to embrace in the sad but not-so-distant future. Today I am trying my best in cramming a lot of information into a limited volume inside my head. I am very taxed and distressed but I must keep working in the library in order to prevent myself from failing school. But time is of the essence, I cannot sleep late today or else I will wake up at 12:00PM and get and get a very bad economics grade = .33(35) + .67(0). Things look gloomy from here on out but the path is getting clearer in the long run.

More Complaining – An Intro

Let’s see, this is the first entry for WordPress, while my account has been around for a few months of inactivity. Name is Jeff Z, could be called Eugene, don’t really care. But anyways, I have written a blog in Xanga, Myspace, Blogspot, Facebook (currently), and now I have moved to WordPress. Yet another reincarnation of the same thing, if you will.

Right now I am going to complain about school, college more specifically. My finals begin on Friday with a double shot of Microeconomics and Chemistry II, both of which I am somewhat lost about. The funny thing is that I took the AP course for both of these in high school as a senior, but the courses here in college seem foreign and unusual, like customs of other countries.

Long story short, I have to do well on these exams and I should be studying for real. I am not exactly jiving with NAFTA or rigid rotors. So I am going to stop writing. I also have to find out exporting things to Facebook, this seems more handy.